project 52-2

It’s week 2 of MCP’s Project 52. This week’s theme is “illustrate a song”.

Click play, turn up the sound, and enjoy the song. 

I am going way beyond what is required by embedding a song with my photo. But I think hearing it really speaks to how and what I am feeling. I am sorry if it’s a bit dramatic. I get like that sometimes.

I have been so down and blah these last few weeks. Tired, overwhelmed with life, kids, the cycle we get caught up in with the day to day. I don’t like when I get or feel this way. I can’t explain why I do. I am sure others feel the same way but I need to snap out of it.

What’s really sad is that my kids sense it.  My 2 yo looks at me and can tell something is bothering me and says “mommy are you happy?”. I respond, “no mommy is sad right now.”  She says, “are you sad mommy?”  I say, “Yes honey, mommy is sad.”  Without hesistation she gets in my face looks at me closely and says, “mommy I make you happy.” She kisses me on one cheek and then kisses me on the other. She looks back at me and says, “mommy are you happy now?”. And of course I can’t help but smile and nod.

It always gets to me.  The thought that my kids will ever remember me as a happy mom or a sad mom.

I am not ashamed to admit that I have off days.

Luckily I am more happy than sad on most days but I want them to remember happy moments.

The world is not the “perfect world” that I was hoping to raise my family in but being around my 2 girls makes all the bad things go away. The recent tragedy in Arizona breaks my heart and I can’t imagine what the families are going through.

This song illustrates why I choose to try and make a change to be better.

To be better to my husband. To be better to my family. To be better to friends.

To be better to strangers.

But most of all to be better to my 2 girls.

Because no matter how grumpy I can get, or how ugly I feel at times, or how dirty my house can get…….all these things really do NOT matter to them. They still look at me as if I hang the moon.

In my Daughter’s Eyes-Martina McBride.

Sorry if my words interfere a bit with the song.

This song is probably best illustrated with multiple photos or a slide show but I will stick to the plan of 1 per week.

I knew exactly what song I wanted to use and what kind of picture I wanted to take. What I didn’t know was how I was going to edit the photo. I was inspired by an old friend of mine, who is a photographer. She took the most beautiful photo of a road and added texture to it. I have never used texture before but thought I would give it a try.

I love the way it turned out. It gives a little character to the photo and really matches it up to the song. I love learning new techniques.

Thanks for the inspiration Shana.